My Challenging Day and My Thought Process
I’m sharing my journey of struggle. For two years, I have been doing videos to help those who watch them. These videos are sharing things that I have been using in my life, as well as those I coach. Each video focuses on some knowledge or insight to improve your life.
It’s now been several hours, and I’m back to writing my article, hoping 4:30 comes quick, so I can stop and take my daughter to practice.
I’m noticing that I’m looking for busy work because it feels better to be busy than not, but I’m not accomplishing my goals. I think about not achieving my goals, which are:
• Earn $5,000 a month easily and effortlessly
• Speak to 24 groups
• Sell my confidence course
I just looked at my vision board, which tells me I don’t know all of my goals, so now I’m questioning if these are my goals or not?
The last goal I have listed is: building Utah Family Therapy by helping 120 new clients every six months.
I’m frustrated because they’re not happening. I just got the news that a softball team accepted my daughter, but because the two coaches did not talk, they offered it to another girl, which makes me not want to do anything but watch a movie.
I’ve got my goals, so why am I struggling to work on them? Why do I want to do everything else but work on my goals? Why do I feel like I’m starting over again? What else should I be doing? How come I feel blah and don’t want to even think about work or helping people?
I have a couple of thoughts; one thought is a spiritual thought, the adversary does not want me to continue to help people and especially women. My second thought is I’m just lazy, and I am allowing fear to control me.
If fear is controlling me, why am I not wanting to do the things I know help me to get rid of fear? Is it fear?
You can see my emotional and mental state is all over the place right now, but I thought you would like to see, my process as I work through this.